not a post in tribute to mr. diamond.
but a hello to you from rebeekah after so very long!
oh, my old friend, wordpress. i’ve truly missed the blogging world…reading all my clever friends’ posts…looking at sweet posted photos…journaling my own stuff for all of you to read and experience alongside me…
perhaps now that i have internet at home (not to mention an AWESOME MAC) i can slowly creep back into this cyberworld of communication and socialization.
have not found the cord to connect the camera to the computer, so my photos are very limited right now. i did take some the other day on my computer–let me see if i can post them… :)
so…it worked!! here are my two precious children. Spencer has changed quite a bit since you saw him last! we celebrated his first birthday last month. :) and the sweet big sister, Elisabeth, is THREE years old now.
it takes a LOT of shots to get one good one! :) (of course i think ALL of them are good.) :)
okay, i’m being lazy, but this is all for now.
there’s so much to say and so many photos to post…but i’m a bit overwhelmed at the moment.
E’s 3rd and S’s 1st; first home purchase; life as a youth pastor’s wife (at a korean church); lexapro-less life; ww struggles; family drama; dreams of dbr…
p.s. how weird is it that my last post was almost exactly one year ago?? strange.
Well, i guess that’s what it’s come down to–one post per month. :(
better than none at all, i suppose! i certainly miss the blogging world…facebook…”surfing”…gone are the days of internet freedom! (and time to do ANYTHING non work-related)
it’s really hard to believe i’ve been here at my new job for eight weeks. i still wish, probably even more, that i could be a stay-at-home-mom. with the new baby really on the way (i’ll be 29 weeks on wednesday!)…i keep thinking about how i’m going to feel leaving not one baby but two (and one being a very baby newborn, at that)–even if i am leaving them with my mom & dad. i’m so grateful, please know, but it’s still so hard. and one of the things i cannot get used to w/my new job is a 30 minute lunch break. (YIKES!) there’s no way i’ll be able to nurse the new baby unless my mom were to bring him up here every day–and even that would be rushing. :( and as far as a maternity leave is concerned?? if i have the baby in october, i will have two–COUNT THEM, TWO–paid maternity days. i’m not joking. and i apologize for this stream-of-consciousness type post, but this is a very small reflection of my mind these days!! i’m trying not to worry, but i find myself constantly going to things like “how will i even afford to take off ONE week of work once the baby is born??” (and considering i’ll be having a c-section again & will be told i need to be off work for 6 weeks, this is terrifying.) these are terrible questions, but i have to face them. the day is soon! as most of you know/remember, Elisabeth came at 30 weeks. i’ve been praying all along, though, that i would make it to at least 36 weeks with Spencer. :) and i have so much hope that will happen. regardless, i trust the Lord completely and know that no matter when Spencer is born, the Lord continues to be completely in control. i must keep repeating that to myself. He owns the cattle on a thousand hills. (i always think of this in the mornings on the way to work, as i pass several small farms!) surely He can provide for me to be off work with a new baby. :)
you all are great to read these ramblings!
my 30 minutes is up.
so today i decided to drive-through arby’s to get lunch for me & my parents. my hopes were not high as far as time goes because 1) there is always a long line and 2) they are extremely slow.
what a nice surprise, then, when i pulled right up to the speaker–only one car ahead of me (already at the window)! as usual, i had a hard time communicating with the person on the other end of the speaker. (does anyone else have this consistent problem? maybe this is due to how softly i usually speak, but i swear sometimes i have to give my order about three or four times.) whatever. after that torturous few minutes, i pulled forward to the window…
and came face to face with the sweetest-faced girl whose eyes were so bright and shiny. we literally couldn’t stop smiling at each other and looking deeply into one another’s eyes. i loved her instantly, you know?
and isn’t that amazing how that happens sometimes? it’s so rare, but when it does…it’s magical. and other-worldly, almost. and i’m left in awe of a God Who created us to be such emotional and complex beings who are able to connect on inexplicably deep levels with simply one look. (no, i’m not female seeking female now. i just re-read the last few sentences or so, and i guess it sounds like i was waxing of a “love at first sight” experience.)
i haven’t been able to get this encounter out of my head. i don’t WANT to.
when she came back to the window to hand me my food, i (HAD to say something and) said, “you are so sweet.” (how cheesy, but what else could i say? certainly not everything else i’ve already written here.) she replied, “you are so sweet, too! you are the sweetest person who has driven through here all day since i got to work this morning.” without thinking, i said, “well, you are an angel.” (WHAT?! do i normally call people–other than my husband or daughter–an ANGEL?) and she just looked at me and said so genuinely, “come back and see me some time. my name is roxeen.” (sp? her nametag was unfortunately covered. i would’ve asked about the spelling, but there was someone behind me.) so i stuck out my hand for a shake and told her my name, too.
and then drove away.
from roxeen, the angel.
i kind of want to see her again, but selfishly i kind of don’t want to, too. unless i happen to go to arby’s again, and she happens to be working the window at that same moment, i think i will just keep this encounter locked up inside in a little memory package that i can occassionally open and re-wrap.
p.s. guess what? i have no IDEA how long it took for my food. it didn’t matter today.
“LOSING A FRIEND”
THIS IS A VERY TOUCHING STORY ABOUT LIFE & DEATH
AND THE FRIENDS THAT WE HAVE.
IT’S CERTAIN TO STIR UP YOUR HEART, TOUCH YOUR SOUL.
THIS EMAIL IS ONE I COULD NOT AFFORD NOT TO SHARE WITH MY FRIENDS.
I’M STILL CHOKED UP OVER IT!
weird things that make me smile:
· going into “my” stall at work & finding that no one has used it yet (lid still up/cleaning bubbles evident in bowl)
· crunching acorns while walking
· seeing something in E’s potty (she started a month ago..she’s not quite 15 months old & still isn’t walking. and yes, i AM a bragging mommy) :)
· smooshing warmed tar on the road with my shoes–and even bare feet. love it.
· i love it when rain droplets (on a window, say) come together to form a bigger rain droplet. same principle applies in the bath tub with bubbles.
· putting my fingers over the finger place on a water fountain (you know, where there’s a picture of fingers). thanks, SJ. :)
Hi, my name is: Rebekah
but you can call me: Rebeekah J
Never in my life have I: dyed my hair
The one person who can drive me nuts is: only one?! J
My high school is: kingwood high school
When I’m nervous: it looks like my nails/cuticles got caught in a garbage disposal
The last song I listened to was: wow, i actually do not know. i think it was on the radio yesterday…something by led zeppelin
If I were to get married right now it would be to: irrelevant
My hair is: ridiculous
When I was 4: i have no memories from early childhood, but i was living in western australia—i.e. heaven on earth
Last Christmas: was Elisabeth’s first
I should be: more self-controlled with my spending
When I look down I see: my blue shirt
The happiest recent event was: E using her potty (#2) last night
If I were a character on ‘Friends’ : i would be monica, surely.
By this time next year: i hope i’m a stay-at-home mom and/or enjoying a fun job. that would be AWESOME.
My current gripe is: i can’t wait to stop working. and also, “that will ruin my points!” (weight watchers)
I have a hard time understanding: how to juggle working with cleaning, mothering, wifeing, and cooking.
There are these girls: that i’m going to play bunco with tomorrow night, and i can’t wait. watch out, here comes Rebunco!
If I won an award, the first person I would tell would be: Doug
I want to buy: everything i see?? seriously, almost every craft item, an ipod, a CAR and HOME…(those would be the biggest)
Where do you plan to visit: um, London, anyone??? THREE MONTHS AND TWO DAYS FROM TODAY.
If you spent the night at my house: you would be very cramped. we don’t have a guest room…but i would still set out your towels and a mint on your pillow! (wherever you might be sleeping!)
The world could do without: violence.
Most recent thing I’ve bought myself: a new pair of walking shoes
Most recent thing someone else bought me: my Mom brought me some cute souvenirs from Branson J
My middle name is: Grace, and middle names are VERY important to me. WHAT’S YOURS?? J
In the morning I: hurry
Last night I was: watching the fantastic four sequel with Doug
There’s this guy I know who: is traveling the world right now. can we say JEALOUS, aaron??
If I was an animal I’d be a: giraffe
A better name for me would be: worry wart
Tomorrow I am: working and then going to be Rebunco in Little Rock
Tonight I am: cleaning my house. seriously. i can do this.
My birthday is: 9 august 1977
1. I’ve come to realize that my last kiss was…
symbolic of our busy lives. a quick goodbye as he got out of the car for work!
2. I am listening to…
a mix of love songs i made about four years ago. includes air supply, anne murray, bryan adams, u2, richard marx, peter gabriel, and theme music from braveheart, ever after and last of the mohicans. i LOVE this love cd.
3. I talk…
and it often sounds like a little kid. chunker, anyone?
4. I am dating…
way too infrequently. maybe two dates in nine months? L
5. My best friend…
is probably the best friend of MANY people. she will never know how amazing she is.
6. My car is…
ridiculous. i often think it’s going to all come apart as i’m driving—you know, like in a cartoon.
7. I hate it when people ask…
how’s that BABY? i mean, not that i don’t love to talk about her or anything—it’s almost the WAY people ask it. ugh.
doesn’t keep a record of wrongs. i’m working on this.
9. Marriage is…
not for the birds–it’s tough! but a great thing, of course.
10. Somewhere, someone is thinking…i wish i had a pair of shoes.
11. I’m always…
daydreaming about the future.
12. I have a secret cheesy crush…
on johnny depp?
13. My mobile phone…
14. When I wake up in the morning…
i always want to sleep longer.
15. When I go to bed at night…
i am exhausted.
16. Right now I am thinking about…
this incredible song and john cusack in say anything. (in your eyes, peter gabriel)
17. Babies are…
18. I get on myspace…
and then hate myself for wasting time on such a silly thing.
19. Today I…
am going to lunch with all the other deans’ secretaries.
20. Tonight I will…
begrudgingly deal with the mountains of CLOTHES we have everywhere in our home.
21. Tomorrow I will…
hate saying goodbye to Elisabeth again in the morning.
22. I really want…
to stay at home with E all day, every day. what a dream.
23. Someone that will most likely repost this is…
not Crystal, because i stole it from her! J
I’ll often catch myself saying to Elisabeth, “I’m gonna eat you up!” because she.is.so.cute.
You know what I mean–you see little toes, and you just want to chew on them…or take a little chunk right outta the meaty rolls on those precious legs.
NO, I haven’t turned into a cannibal. This is all said in jest, and usually in a very strange, high-pitched voice (that GRATES on my husband’s nerves). :)
WELL…sadly, this guy really did chomp down. :( And I have a feeling he wasn’t doing it because the precious, poor little baby girl is so cute.
Reference this post–if I were in charge, these two would definitely be in the same hell-level. :(